As much as I hate to admit it, I need an intervention. I also think I need a fill, but I am at Tricare’s mercy for that one (waiting on my new referral to get approved).
I stopped regularly tracking my calories about a year ago. I did great for a few months and then the stress of life hit. Retraining, seemingly never-ending TDYs, PCS, training someone new at work, 6 day road trip, etc, etc. All excuses, but life none the less. With those excuses, my eating went out the window. I stopped paying attention to eating right and instead ate what made me feel good at the moment.
Where did that get me…19 freaking pounds heavier! Yes, I said 19. I was 11 pounds from my ultimate goal and now I am 30…again.
I am also having a few issues with my band. Some days I can eat nothing solid and others I could eat a cow. I can’t nail down a trigger (other than possibly stress) and I don’t think I am eating too fast. Those rough days have me turning to ice cream though to eat *something* and the vicious addiction to it continues full circle. I don’t think my band has slipped, since I have only thrown up once in my 2 years of having the band, but I won’t know for sure till I get in to see a new surgeon.
At this point, I feel like such a failure. I had my head on straight for over a year and then gave up.
I refuse to give up for good. I know what I can do and will do it again. Starting today.
Today we move out of the hotel and into TLF where I will actually have a kitchen (albeit small) again. No more excuses to eat out. I am going to try as hard as can be to go back to eating out only once a week. It will be hard, so I can’t promise that (we are still inprocessing and working the house deal, so being in TLF at lunch everyday is hard) but I do promise to make better choices than I have been. I also need to get back on track with my exercise. I have only exercised 3 times in the last 3 weeks and I am used to exercising at least 3 times a week.
Today is yoga.
I need help though. Is anyone willing to help keep me accountable? I am going to start tracking my calories again over at myfitnesspal and if you’d like to help keep me accountable, leave me a comment and I’ll give you my diary key. My goal is 1300-1400 calories a day six days a week, with one 1800-2000 calorie day each week. That worked when I was on track before, so I have no reason to think it won’t again.