life.

You know, I have been thinking a lot about life lately. Of course being back in therapy is probably what sparked it, but it’s not a bad thing. I am finding though, that there is an awful lot of complaining that goes on in this world and when I am content, it really drives me nuts.

Sure, we are all guilty at times, but is life really that bad?! I think about the life I have been given and on one hand, I could say it sucks but on the other hand, it could be a whole lot worse.

Sure, my parents divorced when I was 3 and while my biological father I know loves me somewhere, he does not show it, nor do I truly know him. Then, my Papa, who was like a Dad to me died when I was 13. I was given another Dad who was my best friend and he died almost 4 years ago now. I have in-laws that hate me and think I should be in a mental ward, I am bipolar and in turn that has resulted in marital issues that should have broken us, last year I was diagnosed with cancer…

I could go on but I’ll stop there…it really depresses me to think about it and that is not where I choose to live my life today. Instead, I choose to live in a life where I am closer to Bryan than I could have ever imagined, I have a wonderful relationship with Jacey, a great support system, a secure job that I enjoy, a comfortable roof over my head, reliable vehicles, I am a runner, I am a swimmer, I am alive and I have my faith.

Next time you want to complain about the driver that cut you off, the event that doesn’t go “just” the way you want it, the weather, money, etc…really think about it. You have been given life and a choice. Happiness is momentary, but true joy is found deep within.

3 Comments

  1. Esther

    Amen! God does not make mistakes. I really think you are an amazing and beautiful lady. May God continue blessing you, Lacey!

  2. Caroline

    Hi Lacey – I do agree with you, though I would alter it very slightly. As I get older I become more and more convinced that it’s love that makes the world go round, and when one of those loves is shaken it can feel as if one were on quicksand (a parent or close friend dying, a serious argument with a partner, a sick much loved pet, love no longer returned, and so on). What I mean is, it’s love that makes us feel secure, and therefore content. Take that away and it colours everything blue, from the weather upwards. Your faith may well help you here, but I regret I don’t share it, being a sort of lapsed Anglican…
    I do enjoy your blog very much, and particularly like its positive focus. I thought it was about time I stopped reading it without giving credit where it’s due!
    Caroline

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