intervention

As much as I hate to admit it, I need an intervention. I also think I need a fill, but I am at Tricare’s mercy for that one (waiting on my new referral to get approved).

I stopped regularly tracking my calories about a year ago. I did great for a few months and then the stress of life hit. Retraining, seemingly never-ending TDYs, PCS, training someone new at work, 6 day road trip, etc, etc. All excuses, but life none the less. With those excuses, my eating went out the window. I stopped paying attention to eating right and instead ate what made me feel good at the moment.

Where did that get me…19 freaking pounds heavier! Yes, I said 19. I was 11 pounds from my ultimate goal and now I am 30…again.

I am also having a few issues with my band. Some days I can eat nothing solid and others I could eat a cow. I can’t nail down a trigger (other than possibly stress) and I don’t think I am eating too fast. Those rough days have me turning to ice cream though to eat *something* and the vicious addiction to it continues full circle. I don’t think my band has slipped, since I have only thrown up once in my 2 years of having the band, but I won’t know for sure till I get in to see a new surgeon.

At this point, I feel like such a failure. I had my head on straight for over a year and then gave up.

Temporarily.

I refuse to give up for good. I know what I can do and will do it again. Starting today.

Today we move out of the hotel and into TLF where I will actually have a kitchen (albeit small) again. No more excuses to eat out. I am going to try as hard as can be to go back to eating out only once a week. It will be hard, so I can’t promise that (we are still inprocessing and working the house deal, so being in TLF at lunch everyday is hard) but I do promise to make better choices than I have been. I also need to get back on track with my exercise. I have only exercised 3 times in the last 3 weeks and I am used to exercising at least 3 times a week.

Today is yoga.

I need help though. Is anyone willing to help keep me accountable? I am going to start tracking my calories again over at myfitnesspal and if you’d like to help keep me accountable, leave me a comment and I’ll give you my diary key. My goal is 1300-1400 calories a day six days a week, with one 1800-2000 calorie day each week. That worked when I was on track before, so I have no reason to think it won’t again.

Today.

8 Comments

  1. Karen Warrenfells

    I certainly would not make a good accountability partner, but I wanted you to know that you are not the only one. Between being sick, the heat keeping me inside and the huge doses of prednisone I too have put on about the same amount of weight. I feel like a slug right now. But I KNOW both of us will get back on track. I can’t wait until it cools down so I can walk the hill (College Blvd). It’s just soooooo hot right now. I really need a treadmill or stationary for home so i won’t have an excuse. I can’t work out at the CLC because people always want to talk to me and I hate socializing while I am all out of breath and sweaty.

    But I thought I would provide a little support by letting you know I am in the same boat. As soon as my procedures are done this month I am intent on walking the hill and if they can get this bone pain under control I really want to run again. If I run now I pay for it for days after. I always hated running, but I did it anyway….now I miss being able too. Hang in there. Once the world stops spinning like a tornado you’ll get back into the routine and be right back to where you were. Stay in Peace.
    Karen

  2. Ashley

    Last summer, I lost 20lbs. My husband got back from his deployment in Oct and I have gained 25lbs. I am so depressed. I need to get back on the working out and eating healthier bandwagon. I will have to try out this website. I have never seen it before.

  3. Stephanie M.

    I’d love to read your logs. I am sure you’ll be able to get back on track. With the stress of moving and everything else, not to mention road food and driving 20-gazillion miles, a gain isn’t surprising! The trick is to not let it become permanent. Right?

  4. Heather M

    Lacey, last year I too lost weight. I lost 25 lbs via diet and exercise and never ever felt better in my life. I quit my lifelong habit of biting my nails and I was on top of the world. 30 was the best year of my life. I had three beautiful children and a great husband. Then that great husband decided to remodel our house, including the kitchen. It left me for MONTHS without the ability to make wholesome meals as I had. Lots of eating out, quick meals that weren’t so nutritious and lo and behold, I got in a rut. I didn’t gain it all back, but I gained back enough to make me feel like a disaster. My nails got chewed off again and I feel like I”m back at square one. I just made a vow to myself that I need to get back to that place again. I’ve got nails worthy of painting and less of a pooch as we slowly get back to eating regular meals at home again. Baby steps is what it is taking. I hope that hearing there are other people in situations like yours will make you feel less guilty of your slip up and help you get back on track. You had a lot going on in your life and anyone under those circumstances would find it hard to adhere to rules and goals. New home – fresh start so take that moment and dig deep girl! :) You did it before so you know the power is in you!

  5. elizabeth carney

    I will keep you accountable by praying for you. You must know that you are not a failure and life does happen Lacey, trust me I know. However, you are determined and it is evident even though you might not see it!
    e.

  6. Toni High

    Hey, tried to send you an email, but it returned them to me. If you send my your email, I will add you back to my daily food log and give you my comments. I may email you on fb my comments. Let me know.
    Toni

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